It is hard to do what you love, when what you love is something society values as an object, but does not value as a career.
It is hard to continue making, generating new ideas and feel like you are accomplishing something especially during the times you stop and take your mediocre job that pays the bills into account.
It is hard to feel like you are doing the “right” thing when you struggle to pay the bills, can’t even afford clothes from Target, and live paycheck to pay check.
It is hard to feel like you are doing something good when all you produce; you feel is crap.
It is hard to believe in yourself, because the self-doubting-you is so much easier to believe.
All these things are hard. Yes. But also Brave, as one particularly profound friend of mine brought to my attention. It IS brave to say I am going to do what I love even if I am not immediately success, and/or ever successful and/or do not make money. We do it because there is something inherently inside that keeps spouting off ideas, something that needs to draw, paint, write, act, express.
In the foreword of “the WAR of ART” Robert McKee refers to "the block: a paralysis whose symptoms can bring on appalling behavior." He goes on to describe a certain occasion of block he experienced where he proceeded to try on every single piece of clothing in his wardrobe, toss them on the bed and then divide them into spring, summer, fall, winter, spring casual, summer casual, spring dress, etc. You get the point. PROCRASTINATION! (or as referred to by Steven Pressfield Resistance)
Something I face every week with this blog amongst many other things. I love it and yet every week I stare into the hole of oblivion as I try to write a post. The same happens when I’m given a project or deadline. The block or procrastination sets in. And I know im not the only one...
It’s inevitable, but something that is necessary to get over. Once you break past that "block" what comes next is nectar from the gods. As addictive as the most potent of drugs, which is why we choose this path.
Jonathan and I were discussing the other day just how many projects and ideas we have. How we’d wished we’d done some and how we are SO glad we hadn’t done others.
And as I pondered our conversation I began to feel remorse for the projects that had not been done, and yet oddly excited; for all the projects I’m working on and those to come.
“There’s a secret that real writers know that wannabe writers don’t, and the secret is this: It’s not the writing part that’s hard. What’s hard is sitting down to write. What keeps us from sitting down is Resistance.”
-the ART of WAR
The idea; how lucky and brave we are, that this is the life we chose, what a privilege to live this life of creativity and making; to be enthusiastic and willing to continue the fight to make and create everyday. Remind yourself to be full-hearted about the things you will make, want to make and want others to make.
My friend was right it is Brave to choose this path. Not many do. But for those of you who have, will and do everyday. Thank you and congrats, for you are Brave and have so much to offer.
Here’s to a Wednesday of endeavors and keeping your head up!